Thoughts about the past year.

Life is moving pretty fast now, it's starting to get to be that time to say our goodbyes and pack the truck for the journey ahead. It's bitter sweet knowing that we will be leaving soon. So many good times were made and good relationships that we've made over the years. Hopefully there will be many more good times and memories to make in the future.

Something that has been particularly difficult for me this past year was loosing Vinnie (Vincent Lombardo). I've lost people before in my life and that is something that never gets easier to deal with. There are only a few who really know how hard that was for me, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him or what he has given me in my life. There were a lot of crazy times in our lives. I feel like we lived enough for two lifetimes by the time we where in our early twenties. More recently I think you saw something in me that I failed to see in myself, during a time when that was exactly what I needed. You showed me that it was ok to do what made me happy regardless of what people may think of me. You made me strive to be the best that I could be not only for myself but for the people around me that cared. I can't put into words how thankful I am that you took time to help me work out some of my other problems when you had your own to worry about. I just wish I could have been there for you the way that you where for me.

Now that a year has passed by so fast, I want you to know that I will never forget you and what you did for me. I will spend each and everyday running towards the happiness that we deserve in our lives. I will continue to press forward and look for the success in life that we always knew we would have when we talked about life when we where younger. When the time comes that we find everything that we are looking for I know that I can look up and know that you are smiling down on us.

I love and miss you Vinnie...

Getting Ready 12/11/11

So December is here and the last blog was awhile ago but it seems like just yesterday that I posted it. Last weekend my best friend Sarah was married and we had so much fun. I know she was really stressed out that last couple of weeks. But in the end it all came out wonderful. She had me do a reading for the ceremony, which I had to try and keep my composure. I tend to be a emotional person, maybe I'm an empath, lol who knows. But my Maid of Honor speech was good and I held it together for that. I wish her so much happiness on her new chapter!

We've started packing and going through all our possessions to see what is coming with us into this new chapter and what isn't. Sometimes it's hard, even though it's only stuff. We've created our own little life together over the last 12 plus years and now we have to narrow it all down to fit in a 10 foot truck. So much has to go! I guess it's sort of like a detox of items.

Through out this whole process so far we have been each others support, staying positive even though the hardest part is yet to come. There are moments when we realize how close our move date is an we freak a little because there is still so much to do! We are still looking for a place. I think that is the hardest part so far. We live across the country from where we are moving so we cannot go see apartments to see if we like the neighborhoods. Lucky for us we have some friends and family that live out there to give us some advice.

We have been getting so much advice from everywhere. Most are excited and happy for us. Some show concern that we might fail. We've thought about that. We just want to be happy and have no regrets. We are going out there with a positive attitude and hope for the best. If we go out there and things don't work out, well at least we tried and that is not a failure. We would come back to New Jersey not with are tails tucked between our legs, but with our heads held high. We would be proud of the fact that we gave it our best. It will be how we feel in our hearts that will matter most and not the perception of this new adventure will be to others.

I think that's it for now. Lenny will be posting a new blog in a few days.